my lil gal

hola..

my gal got chicken pox last Sunday.. on Monday mornin i sent her to the clinic to verify.. yes it is though she has only 3 small spots.. So today is wednesday.. she has around 30, not big.. i hope she wouldnt have a lot like me :) not yet gatal2.. surviving tapi dedaq sedikit.. the sad part is i cant really look after her.. i sent her to my mom on monday after we went to the clinic.. we try to avoid haziq from having the same flu.. will see how.. as for now, we lied to haziq by not telling him that his sister is back in kg.. or else he wouldnt want to go to school and start creating stories, he is not feeling well bla bla bla.. i will go back to SP this evenin once I've settled with haziq n husband.. i've to feed them first and early in the mornin, tmro, come back and fetch them to school.. what a tiring day.. after 3 hours of lecture and tutorials.. :)

well, not easy to send or to leave ur kids with someone else.. Luckily my mom is still ok and that someone else is my mom.. tq mama.. i lurve u.. this is the scenario nowadays.. since the ladies have to work, for sure the grannies have to help us with the kids.. specially with such flu.. for a better reason, my sis is also staying with my mom and she is still unemployed.. a bonus for damia.. she is soooo attached with me.. living her there makes everybody in the house feels so empty.. we miss her cheekiness, her pot pet pot pet, she tease haziq a lot.. lovely lil gal..

as for me, the most sad part of being a mother is when i have to leave haziq for 3 motnhs for an attachment in the states.. really sad.. he was only 1 year 5 months.. and i have to leave him.. only Allah knows how i miss him.. to make that even worse, i was alone in a guest house.. cant cook, pregnant to damia which limits my movement, my joy and all other things.. but i did survive.. horror ok sbb aku sorang dok umah yg besar.. huhu.. all i can hear is the sound of branches on the top of the roof, scretching the roof.. with squirrels jumping here and there.. from the trees to the roof.. and with no curtains.. looking at the sky with shadow of trees.. some experiences during my study time that developed braveness in me.. u have to go and leave ur family for a while or else you wont get ur phd..

holla 2010, good bye 2009

so many things happened in 2009. early of the year, we have to struggle with our financial, settling down in penang, travelling kulim-penang every weekend.. what a tiring year for us.. and of coz, our house in kulim was neglected.. but we ended the year with sort of celebration.. both of my sisters already married.. all of us already married and i believe that both of my parents can now breathe smoothly as their responsiblity has been transfered to the husbands.. we were in kuala terengganu releasing the hardwork we had undergone for the past months preparing for the kenduri.. its double celebration indeed.. lega!!

of coz, new year 2010, we have so many resolutions to be done.. mine? later probably.. lets begin with my kids' story.. haziq is now in pre-kindy class taking mandarin too.. damia in readiness class, later in the evening 3 times a week he has to learn his iqra' at the kindergarten.. i would like to thank Mrs. Tan for her arrangement.. as a mother, i dont mind investing lotsa money for them but later do remember our sacrifice.. we love you, we always want to find the best school, the best way to make you two happy.. be a good boy and a good girl..and we always proud to be your father mother..

how about my work? i'm targeting to go to US for a conference in may.. i hope i can.. well, need to do all the hard work, put extra effort and fly fly fly.. besides there is hidden agenda hehehe.. well, start from now on and save some money for that.. with the kpi and kip watso eva, i need to send and publish 1 or 2 papers to refereed journal as well as getting more students to supervise.. for this level i just want 1 or 2 master students to do wateva that i'm keen of..

well, my resolutions for this year
*) to be a good muslimah.. what i need to do? i need to really tutup my aurat! with tudung when i'm at my mom's house, in law's house, oso waktu sidai kain kat luar.. buy few pairs of socks.. besides kena lebih menepati waktu2 solat, improve my quran reading too.. especially sewaktu sembahyang..
1) to be a good wife.. well lately, terasa satu aura yg kurang in our relationship after 5 years.. is that normal? i just want those days sewaktu berbunga2 cinta masih mekar.. i need to do something.. less argument probably.. huhu
2) to be a good mother.. selalu marah anak2ku yg sedikit degil.. please control ur temper yeahh
3) to be a good daughter.. yeah mama n abah.. i hope i can contribute more to both of you
4) to be a good worker.. less time with fb, reading blog and more time with research work
5) to save some money.. there is a figure that I'm targeting
6) to make over some space of my house

i guess that would be enough!! so, happy new year!!